Mr. Big

I don't know if this is an all female situation or just me and the ones i know, but in our lives there's this one particular guy....i'll call him Mr. Big. Now Mr. Big is a guy we got involved with for a variety of reasons, varying from "he was cute" to " i stole him from her just to show her who's the real b*@tch "....oops, ignore that last one. Anyway needless to say the relationship didn't start out serious, but then something changed and unbelievably Mr.Big became the most important thing to exist. He became the one you wanted to be with but you were afraid to make the first move.....ironically after you started the damn thing, he became the one you dreamed about a future with all the while trying to convince yourself "he's not that important". Then one day it ends...and you're devastated. Now this is the part thats really funny, all the friends that used to say you'd be soo cute together are now calling him everything from dog to that thing.....and then they tell you it's ok, the children wouldn't have been that cute anyway, lol.

Sigh, anyway Mr. Big is that guy that no matter how you try you just can't seem to get over him.

So me and my Mr.Big, well looking at it from the outside, you'd see two totally unsuitable persons, he's accepted that, i haven't....sad huh, considering that there's now a bf (keep up, the bf is not Mr. Big). So simple solution, find out what it is about Mr.Big that is so irresistable and look for it in the b/f right???...WRONG......everybody's unique and most definitely what makes Mr. Big...well, Mr.Big is uniquely him and looking for it in somebody else well..... wouldn't it mean that i'm looking for another Mr.Big?? who's exactly like the last one?? and wouldn't that be two steps backward? or would it be one step forward.....he would be physically different after all :D......i miss my Mr.Big :(

Sigh, i dunno.......
Next post i'll be more up beat and less confusing