I've been in a few relationships and I find that as time progresses it becomes harder and harder to walk away from each failed one. Usually there's a post relationship evaluation period for me, here i think about things like:
what i did wrong
what he did wrong
how to heal from this one
what i'm looking for in the next one
Ask K. Mack; he'll tell you that after every failed relation i swear off men, but as i find myself exiting yet another failed relationship i find that rather than going through the evaluation checklist i'm actually hopeful. This was not the best relationship i've had but i found that as time progressed and i became relegated to girlfriend in hiding (this is like after the 50th break up), i realized that i wasn't getting what i wanted. Maybe it sounds selfish but the least i expect from my man is for him to be considerate!! I certainly don't expect to be wear the title "girlfriend who is less important than the female friends"....If you treat me like that then how're they supposed to treat me??
Now i have to give him his props, he's a great listener and he was a great friend but I just find it funny that the sweetest, charming most romantic male turned into an insensitive, inconsiderate boyfriend.... I told him everything i didn't like/respect or appreciate and he did it anyway....and then he has the gall to ask ME to not do things that he doesn't like/respect.
***Insert laughter here***
After my bout of psychochickitis.... a disease i PRAY fervently to never catch again......( ooh but how i wish he was near enough for me to kick him in the shins...sigh), i've decided to just move on, after all i'm only hurting myself in all this, he's fine.
So on to the new, maybe not a new man just yet, but the rest of 2009 is gonna be dedicated to new projects....anything to fill the space.
Out with the old and in with the NEW!!!
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